Great way....

To start off the new year but completely wrecking my body... :/

ALAS as my last name has some terrible curse on it and anything thats bad seems to gravitate towards me like I have my own orbit or something another.

I slip.

And completely mess my body up.
Stomach was all cut up, hand are completely fucked. Just typing this is putting me through a lot of pain. Elbow dislocated. Leg cut up. Surprisingly enough though my pinkie didn't break. Which I figured it would because its all cut up but thats it.

So now I have 4 holes in my hand and then some. My left hand got off lucky only two holes in it. The right though. Nu-uh. 4 holes, torn up knuckles, cut to shreds pinkie, hole in my wrist [[wtf?]] and palm scratched to high hell. Oh boy oh joy what a great way to start off whats more than likely going to be another shitty year.

I need to start doing college prep as I have plans to attempt to attend Uni. sometime this fall. "Attempt" being the key word. But with my hands all mangled up likes like all the drawing is on halt.

Albeit this happened on the 31st. I walked into work, blood everywhere. Like I had just survived a Quentin Tarantino slasher flick or something, AND STILL HAD TO WORK! Ain't that some shit? My job is very discriminate against race. :/ If you're not Thai you're not shit. You don't get days off to play "soccer" you fall, you still have to work. And oh boy oh joy don't let you get injured. Just slap on some gloves and you're good to go!

I need a new job and fast. Music store is hiring so I'll put in an application there. Maybe I can score a drum kit off them for cheap or something. Hahaha.

ANYWAYS all that aside I'm all bandaged up, still have to work, still car less, girlfriendless, and anything else bothering me. Go figure. Story of my life.

So this year is starting off bad. Last year did too [[IE gf running off to get married to 10 year older guy. Also revealing that she's pregnant by him. Whilst I was none the wiser.]] Yep so lets see what this year brings.

Here's something I was working on but I couldn't get it to look right so now its just shit.

I SERIOUSLY need to practice anatomy...





Stay up.

2009...

Is already starting off horrible.

My "girlfriend" ran off to go get married to some guy that she spent the entire time we were together badmouthing. :/ And that pretty much just messed up my year completely. G'job Ale. You're a fucking idiot. I loved you. I can't bring myself to care for you now. Seriously. I don't know. Nobody really reads this anyways.

2009 isn't starting off good for me at all. I have plans on going to Uni this year so I guess I won't have a girlfriend to worry about. :(

I kept having dreams that this was going to happen. But I figured they were just those. Dreams. Turns out they were real and now I'm slapped with a nice dose of reality.

I have horrible luck with women. My brother was making fun of me because of it. 7 times now its been a shitty ending for me.

I don't know. I'm just going to neeed some time to get my head back on straight or something. I'm not to sure as of yet. I don't know how to feel about all of this. People were warning me about her in the beginning and me [[being the dumbass that I am]] decided that I wasn't going to listen.

So go ahead and say, "See I told you so."

I deserve it.

I don't know what to think, how to feel, what to say. It seems like nothing I can say will change the way things are. And what bothers me worse is that I don't know if I care or not...Things were going to come to head sooner or later and I wasn't that attached to Ale as I thought I was. I loved her [[or so I think]] but I don't know if I actually did or it was the "thought" of being in love with her that got me. Ever since Jasmin told me that it sticks with me. It makes lots of sense as well.

I'm really trying I am. Somethings gotta give with my relationships. My brother blames it on our last name. Apparently having the last name "Samples" means that you're entitled to be fucked over royally. Its happened lots of times in our lives and it continues till this day. And I was just bragging to my dad yesterday about her. :/

Either ways I'm not going to bore you with my life so here's some art for ya.

Betrayed...

By people who I thought were my 'friends' by people who do shit behind my back and leave me to figure all this shit out on my own.

I'm of course talking about Ale and "Bryan".

Ale had good intentions [[I'm guessing. I'm in defense mode so I don't know what to believe]] but Bryan is fucked up.

Straight up.

I guess something as trivial as a girl can ruin friendships. Its ruined a really good one of mine in the past [[which wasn't worth it]] and its ruining this one in the present [[which for damn sure ain't worth it]]

But thats just because there is some suspect bullshit going on. Some high school bullshit as well as some just plain stupidity at work.

And yeah I'm fucking pissed. I'll get over this shit though. I've been fucked over way worse in the past. No lies about it.

Good intentions or not.

People fucked up.

And they fucked up real bad.

I found out.

And they think I'm fucking kidding.
But I'm dead fucking serious.

So to all you fake ass 'friends'

I guess I'm just hurt by all of this. Like I said I'm in defense mode.
But seriously shit has taken a major step back.

FUCK YOU!